Space..

"There is this space which is quiet..
There is this space where there is no want, fear or hate..
There is a noise in other spaces and there is chaos that is confusing.."

"God bless you. We love what you do for us every week". I love to hear this every time I visit the shelter every week. Such a selfish thing I do to please myself. We are all travelers and our paths meet from time to time. I have come to believe that from my experiences. We meet people for a reason and then we drift away for a while and then meet again till we imbibe the life lessons. I am a very ordinary person with ordinary dreams and hopes. I have made my mistakes and I continue to make them from time to time but when there is something real in my life I think I can feel and understand it. I am not sure if I am brave enough to always embrace it but I am learning.

In everybody's life there must have been that one moment when one feels a deep connection to reality and to the self. As I go to the shelter week after week I feel that. I feel like my space on this earth truly makes sense. I do not feel the need to make a point, compete or to get constant appreciation. I feel real as though nothing matters and that my journey here has some meaning. I already recognize my inner desire but that doesn't make me an excellent human being. I recognized it when I was doing similar things in India. Why is it so hard to really live what we want? Why is everything so complicated and so difficult to leave behind? Why is this attachment to money, family and loved ones so much that we somehow become slaves of our situation and find it difficult to break away from the false and attach ourselves to the real things? Why are we always trying to fit in and please people? Such difficult questions to answer. Hopefully I make that connection between wanting, needing and achieving.